Language and "mental illness"
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This needs a lot of study in the field of Psychohistory. Hari Seldon wrote many books on this topic. But he is dead. Try Encyc. Galactica. - your only hope. Or contact Issac Asimov. If hes dead too by the time you read this, sorry there's no hope left for you. Nobody can help you. Why did you get in this situation in the first place - god only knows ! Try yoga, should make you quiet and stable - upto a certain extent. Everything else is in a precarious position. Do not climb tall buildings , towers.